Can't really sleep tonight, been rolling around and my eyes are really tired but my mind is restless. On top of that I'm extremely bored and I have no source of entertainment. I really miss having my good computer work to play because I'm not much of a TV fan and boredem really gets to you after a while. I'm just counting down the days till the 27th, it's my B-day that day and hopefully I will be able to barrow some money from friends and family to buy something. I only got about 76 dollars but my two of my friends owe me over 90 dollars. They say they would pay me back at the end of the month so I can only hope they do so I can maybe buy a Xbox 360. I really need to find something to do though, you really can't imagine how blunt your life is when something you really enjoy is tooken away from you. I just hope I can survive till then cuz boredem is a real killer these days.

I wish my mother didn't resent me so much because of my resemblance to my father, she may say she doesn't but I know she does. She just came home from a little trip she went on with her friends and she ignored me when I was asking her how her trip was. Most of the things she said was just go unload my car for me and put my bags in my room. When I bringing her bags back in the house I saw her sitting on the table with my older brother talking about her trip and how she brought him some shirts for him and his girlfriend. My parents have always favored my brother but I just wish that they could see that I still love them more then anything and I wish they would just talk to me like a human being. I know they've done some terrible things to me as a child but I wish that they would see that I see past all that and I will love them no matter what they've done. 

Bored and I just got a comp working in my room, it's not my good one but it's something to keep me from dieing of boredem. Gf told me to start this journal thing online so I just thought I would humor her but I don't get why everyone else can read it if it's your journal. Hopefully I will be able to get my good comp up and running later this month so I don't have to deal with slow CPU speeds and window processes. Also, it's nice to get music back in my life other then the radio, you would be surprised how less colorful the day is without music.